Lately I don't have a clue what's going on in my life. You try to make decisions based off the information you have but many times that data is flawed. As a child I was brainwashed with a very narrow minded, god centered world view with the main mast driving the ship being that this world view was the only right one and all other people were deceived (deception of course being the Devil's principle job). It's sad to look back and see all the people that tried to warn me of stupid things I was doing when I was younger. Unfortunate when you have that mindset the only way to learn that a deeply held belief is wrong is through life experiences proving that belief wrong. Sometimes all you can do is try, fuck up, learn and try some more. To anyone I hurt or offend through my process, I offer a heartfelt apology now. It's never my intent to make a stupid decision or be a dick but sometimes it happens. When I see someone raised similarly I want to warn them but I know it won't do any good. Instead I just try to love them where they are and hope they can see the light before they get too far down a foolish road.