Much has changed in my life since my break from normalicy. I've had some people leave my life abruptly, been lied to, been blessed in many ways, learned a greater depth of what I am capable of and can endure, came face to face with many fears (which I'm still working to overcome) but mostly discovered that the world is not what I thought it was but instead is what we make it to be each day. Unfortunately most people only look out for themselves and will throw some kindness your way if it benefits them. Most people also don't deserve to be let into your life closer than you could scope them with a sniper rifle. If you find someone who actually thinks of other people as much as themselves (and sometimes before themselves), you are lucky. It's those closest to you, those who you let inside stabbing range that can really fuck you up so you have to be selective as to who you open up to. Instead of obliterating you with a high caliber round, the can simply wound you permanently. I'm resolved to do my best not to talk about other people to those it doesn't concern. With the exception of my writing, I'm also attempting to close down my borders significantly because as I'm getting older, I've realized that most people aren't worth having close and I'm actually good with a small group of loved ones.
The nature of my life has changed slightly due to having a relationship I'm committed to but now there are just two people in tandem seeking out a life that's outside the "status quo". I don't have the same amount of time to myself or type of freedom as before but that is the nature of sharing your life with someone - it's not just yours anymore. Sure, I've cut a few new keys to add my ring now but I love our life and can't wait to see where it takes us next.
"All I need in this life of sin is me and my girlfriend".