I thought I knew what I wanted to say, but as soon as I wrote the words down they had to be erased.
Full off the script I keep shoving in my face, I’m eating these lines like a fat kid at a golden corral buffet.
The arrogance apparent, parroting parents till the echos rebounding have faded to transparent.
I’m staring into a pool, the general mish-mash, it’s surface like my mind, sometimes still, sometimes thrashed.
It’s all me, every single problem I see, reflecting the chaos I haven’t set free.
Was blinded by lies though I sincerely believed, angry with the labels others slapped on me.
Till one day I stepped out, saw from the outside, a fourth dimensional perspective - I’m already what I am, no more reason to hide.
Which came first, the seed or the tree? Both - everything is existing simultaneously.
Judged by the fruit, not the name on the seed, words are only useful to constrain the be-ing.
Be here now
Thursday, November 8, 2018
I thought I knew what I wanted to say, but as soon as I wrote the words down they had to be erased.
Wednesday, September 12, 2018
Is there a character of love that everyone can agree on or is it up for interpretation? Obviously that’s an unanswerable question because love is an idea. However, if I were to take a crack at it I would say this - Love is simply recognizing everything as a reflection of you. Sometimes the most loving thing you can do is to say “no” or allow someone (including “yourself”) to “fail”, while other times a word of encouragement or helping hand are for the highest good. There isn’t a rule book; there is only treating others as if they were you - what some people call the Golden Rule. That is a love without anything to fear, unless you are afraid of yourself.
Monday, August 20, 2018
"When you are nothing, you are simultaneously everything"
Dr. Schrödinger’s cat in the hat:
Wanted dead and alive - for letting possibility one, two, infinity - do the jail break dance on my eyeWatch.
Unlock the iWants.
GNU licensed IP address hashtagging, public domain walls, sharing with donated fonts.
No past perception based limitations,
Preoccupations or passive aggressions,
You’re irrecoverably relatively / off of the clock,
Irreverently eating green eggs and ham with a relative fox,
Relatively outside of Some Thing’s box.
When you are Some Thing, life is pain - change only happens gradually:
Grey clouds, fore casting heavy reigns - plagued by psychosomatic maladies.
Definitions constrain potential possibility planes – karmically attached gravity.
Gravely it’s a shame,
these grave digging robbers hitting their own gravy trains.
Higher prophets for the highest profits - pump and dump for short term gains.
Preaching doom and gloom,
No long term remainders can remain,
Reminders of the point at which imperfection was detained -
Eliminated, scrubbed -
The Nothings pile up;
Plucking up a reckoning fashioned from leaving none / but your own blood to suck.
When you are nothing you are everything which is something:
but it’s transitory,
based on a story,
written in blood.
Uno con la nada igual dos,
dos más uno igual tres,
Fibonacci, proporción áurea,
espacio y vez.
Alles sind meine Beziehungen,
(All are my relations)
meine Welt ist Sie Umgebungen,
(My world / kingdom is the environments)
wie ich teile was ich erkenne -
(how I divide what I see)
Macht das Zauber die ich spreche.
(Makes the spells I speak)
все это отражение
(everything is a reflection)
как я люблю жизнь,
(how I love life)
так меня любит жизнь
(is how life loves me)
Бог во всем, что я вижу
(god is in all I perceive)
Wednesday, July 18, 2018
When I was young (which increasingly feels like yesterday) I was under the impression that humans were supposed to be "in control" of their lives and through effort maintain that life till the end. The more I experience, the more I question how much control each of us has over anything. Do we even choose the thoughts that come into our minds or is it merely where we direct our attention which through repetition wears a groove for energy to drop into making that "line of thinking" "second nature" or "subconscious"?
Persistent attention forms natural actions which further wear the groove. A thought obsessed upon with no outlet is like pumping water into a reservoir till it overflows or the dam breaks. Energy always ends up taking the path of least resistance which is why "negative" or "positive" actions are self-reinforcing. Perception of reality is constrained by the sides of the canyon the river of time is flowing through. Altering the state of consciousness through various means breaks the normal state of flow allowing a vision into a more natural way of being, one that is outside of the engrained programming of personal history.
If most action is the natural outlet of energy from perseverating on a thought or idea, perhaps the best actions are the thoughtless ones. Thoughtless meaning: no desire for a specific outcome. We despise the impermanence of life due to the permanence of the changes. Pain is thought to help keep our corpus intact but that pain would likely be ignored if there were an inbuilt regeneration system to restore the status quo. The bulk of our fear of the future is because we do not know if we will regenerate what we perceive is being lost in the passage of time. No matter how hard you try, nothing can be recreated - the same experience had twice. Despite getting everything environmentally to "match", the Observer - you, is not the same for having already previously had the experience. The only way this could be accomplished would be to perform a memory wipe and program your consciousness with the entire sequence up till the point you wish to repeat. Notwithstanding, the highly improbable but necessary rewinding of the entire universe to repeat an event, what would be the point if you didn't remember having repeated it? Without a change in that cycle you end up stuck in "groundhog day", or as some might call it - hell.
Save for experiencing the infinitely knowable yet ultimately inscrutable flow of life, there isn't a point. That's what impermanence is for - having an experience, not something to strive for mastery over and subdue. Everything has cycles to necessitate the illusion of time. The only thing that is intrinsically you is the intangible essence of your perception. You don't ever die or become reborn, you just move between vehicles.
Sunday, June 3, 2018
Constant truth and perfection,
Unadulterated acknowledgement of personal intention
Judge not or you will be judged, ROI the measure you meet, lose the beam in your eye before tweezing your bro - internal MPD, externalized foes
They say Jesus said it but then fail to comprehend or heed, interpret the proverb to fix egos pride fiend.
Main line, a narrow path, chop down all their trees, burn the high places calling them weeds
Self righteous stoners shotgun saw dust from sawed offs, blasting all the wretched sinners they cross.
Stop parting the seas, Moses step over, Kanye that stick - dick, your turn’s over.
You see what you want, filtered through personal belief, reticular active your rectum, pop your head out - purge your beliefs
Step back, whoah that’s whack - shits proportional to how close you are to what you attttack - reflection, your perception, those little dots, only microcosms of logs you haven’t yet chopped.
Saturday, May 5, 2018
Bells Theorem). Essentially, the angle of the crystal defines the possibilities coming out the other side. Screen savers were developed because old CRTs would get "screen burn" where the phosphorus coating would be permanently etched if one image remained for too long. LCD's have a similar issue called "image persistence" where the crystals have a predilection towards the persistent alignment. Image persistence is generally correctable through a couple simple methods: 1. Power down the monitor for an extended period of time. 2. Use a screen saver that is essentially a pixel wipe. 3. Set the entire screen to one color to reset all the crystals. Why am I still talking about imaging technology? It’s all an analogy. We are made of fluididity, vibration, change - our only definition comes from who we believe ourselves to be. The mind is the liquid crystal with the polarizers of society only passing through what our conditioned beliefs permit.
Friday, April 13, 2018
When most people learn math they are told “subtraction is the opposite of addition and division is the opposite of multiplication”. This however is false. Subtraction is opposite to addition but it is also the conceptual doorway to imaginary numbers and debt. Division differs from multiplication because if you multiply whole numbers together, you will always get a whole number as the product; this is not always the case with division ergo they are not the same. Multiplying is adding in sets and the Japanese have a very ingenious way of demonstrating this visually with intersecting lines which stand for different powers of ten (here is a link Japanese Line Multiplication if you would like to see a video). When you divide something you are saying “how many pieces can I separate this thing into?”. Before we go too far down the mathematical philosophy rabbit hole, let’s get back to knives.
In any primitive society the ability to create a sharp edge would be one of the first and possibly the main tool to springboard significant advancements in many fields. Which is curious because if you look at many “eastern philosophies” they are based on the idea that division is not only illusory but is the cause of the illusion. It seems as if you could parallel “societal evolution” with the expansion of the illusion commensurate to the technology of the time which serves to separate us further and further from everything natural. That may seem like a paradoxical statement due to the wireless age “bringing the world closer together” but the old axiom “believe half of what you see and less of what you hear (or read)” seems to have been lost on most internet users as they assume that what they ingest on a daily basis is an accurate representation of reality.
Particularly now with our ubiquitous electronic gadgets, we have created a cacophony of electromagnetic noise that our bodies are effected by at a molecular level. MRI, EEGs and the like have shown that our brains operate on, radiate and are effected by electromagnetic radiation. Up until a hundred years or so ago, there was essentially no EM (electromagnetic) pollution and the further we have pushed ahead into our digital age, the further disconnected from nature and ourselves we have become as well as experiencing an explosion in “diseases” and “conditions”. All of this pollution very likely serves as a jamming signal blocking out the natural field from the earth and cosmos. This could account for why you physically and mentally feel different after spending some time in remote places far away from any “modern technology”. Your biological rhythms synchronize back up to the earths field which promotes health and well being.
I still haven’t come back to the knives. In the Christian Bible it says “The word of god is quick and powerful, sharper than any two edged sword. Piercing even to the dividing asunder of souls and spirit, joints and marrow...” Hebrews 4:12. There’s the dividing again and in Ephesians 6:17 it calls the “Word of God” the “Sword of the Spirit”. There is also a “belt of truth” perk in that armor package which is interesting because the “word of god” is also referred to simply as “truth” other places in the book which kind of makes the belt and sword the same thing but I digress.
To one way of thinking (or non-thinking) truth and falsehood are illusory. Adherence to a belief in distinctions is the cause of “samsara” “being stuck in the same pointless cycle”. As soon as you define something as “immutable truth” you have taken an invisible sword “dividing asunder” what heretofore was whole. In Genesis when it talks about the forbidden fruit in Eden, it says in was from "the tree of the knowledge of good and evil". This implies that the condition of "good and evil" pre-existed however, what if this were not entirely the case? The act of accepting good and evil as a concept and consequently the act of "disobedience" creating a separation from "god" could be the partial "genesis" of why the world is how it is today. Kat Williams does a great bit about insurgents that conveys this point. “They use words you cannot identify on the news to confused you. ‘today five insurgents were killed...’ Whatever, I ain’t got one insurgent friend, kill em all”. This is a paraphrase but illustrates the point of how separation through distinctions held as true has brought human civilization to where it is now - the epic struggle over various peoples views of what is good and evil and how they are different. Clearly this is something that is learned because "animals" can be taught what they "should" and "shouldn't" do even expressing guilt and shame, joy and gratitude. A pet's culture is usually limited to their "owner" so the canine community seems to have a huge range of perceived intelligence and social capabilities. Humans however, have the vantage of a much larger pack system and our expectations of each other are much more standardized.
Shamans believe that all time is now which makes sense according to some theories in physics. This means that the Heaven and Hell people talk about aren't destinations like Fiji or Siberia - it is a state of being which is why Christ said to be like a child if you wanted to enter heaven. A child hasn't been programmed yet. You know they are when people comment on how adult they are acting - meaning you do what is expected of you. That doesn't mean you cannot be mature and still be innocent but innocence is generally coupled with being unfettered. This offends people who are locked into a particular mindset due to holding onto past experiences. Every mental / emotional state is available now it's just a matter of how you let your perception direct your attention. Of course this may additionally upset people because you aren't "reacting to things like a normal person" but isn't that the point?
I don’t think technology is bad necessarily but I do think the level of integration and use is grossly exceeding healthy limits. Technology is mostly a synthetic for what we are all capable of but have lost the knowledge of its possibilities. Perhaps it’s not just the knowledge but lack of belief uncoupled from attachment to a result. The first time, or first week of sitting in meditation "trying to have an open mind" without having had a “mystical experience” or at least gained some peace many give up. Humans have a terrible habit of expecting skills that take time to develop be innate. For example most parents and teachers will tell children to “concentrate” without ever teaching them how. This leads to the child accepting the belief that “I cannot concentrate. I’m just not good at it. I have AD.. (you fill in the blanks)”. Very few people are competent on their first experience with something new but because things move at such a fast pace in most of the world today we forge ahead covering up our panic and “insufficiencies” with distractions and escapism.
Ready Player One is a vision of the not too distant future that seems unnervingly accurate. People are absorbed with the virtual world because the real world is such shit. With everything going on in the world now available to consume digitally, the 24/7 fear mongering, there is a lot to want to escape from but that’s slapping a bandaid on a sliced jugular. With all the school shootings, many folks bandy about gun control, others scream about it but I’ve not heard a single person say “our society is sick and this is a symptom”. There seems to be a lot of truth in the Celestine Prophecy specifically where it says, in our disillusionment with monarchs and religion we turned to science to give us an answer. Since no answer has been returned, we have settled for pursuing technological advancement for the purposes of our own comfort but also as something to do to maintain an illusion of control over our fate or at least distract us from it.
Is division of things wrong? Should knives be banned from the next time civilization reboots? Is truth a fallacy? Those are questions I will leave for you to ponder because my belief system is that people need to learn to hear themselves and connect to whatever it is that has heart for them. The only recommendation I could have is get to know yourself. Who are you if you stripped everything away? Is what you perceive yourself to be simply the compilation of your memories, "achievements" and experiences or is there something more? The modernized world operates with a majority of the population running down a road of debt and hard work chasing the carrot of retirement only to have no teeth left to chew it with when they finally get it. Retirement is about the idea of being free to do what ever it is that you want but in addition to many having little physical stamina, they also have no clue who they are or what they want and simply waste away filling their time with TV, food, alcohol, whatever. All those wanting freedom but "working for the weekend" to escape the week and feel temporarily free, valuable energy (time, money etc) are frittered away. What are we ultimately trying to escape? Personal honesty is a knife I think I can endorse.